I don’t understand anything anymore. It’s literally impossible for me to get a job. I have no real friends. I want to go back to college and my parents refuse to help me out financial. I’m yelled at to do things all day. Then I’m told that shit should’ve been done even though I wasn’t told to do them. I hate living. I hate this house. I hate myself. I am getting no where and there’s no one to help to get me through this. I drink by myself almost every night and I cry. I constantly cry. No one understand me. Everyone around me is too selfish to hear me out and my “good friends" I don’t want to talk about this to because they are way to judgmental. I want to get the hell out of here I want to leave and never have to interact with a single person again. I just want to disappear. Death looks so appeasing right now.